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Celebrating What’s Behind and What’s Ahead
May
30

Written by: journeyoncanvas

05/30/2021 2:14 PM

Today I’m celebrating my 53rd birthday. I’ve made it pretty far on my journey. God willing, I still have a long way to go. One of my recent paintings reminds me of things that once were a big part of my life: the shed I explored as a child, the stove that was our hearth, and the tools Dad used to tend his gardens. These are all things of the past. I paint and I look back.

Yesterday, I was reflecting and feeling sad about the passing of life and time. Then I saw this quote: “You have to let go of what’s behind you so you can live the life you have ahead.” I have a bit of work to do in this department, but I’m not willing to completely let go of the “what’s behind” stuff. Some of “what’s behind” is full of warm memories and grounding stuff that I want to take with me to my journey’s end. As I celebrate my 53rd birthday, I embrace the life I have ahead as well as “what’s behind,” and I feel completely and totally blessed. You will continue to see me obsessively paint the past, but don’t think that I am stuck there. I choose to be there, and I like it. Life is meant to be lived and remembered. Today, I choose to do both on my journey. Join me.
This painting is about remembering the past.
Don’t Mind the Bees, 2021

Celebrating What’s Behind and What’s Ahead

Today I’m celebrating my 53rd birthday. I’ve made it pretty far on my journey. God willing, I still have a long way to go. One of my recent paintings reminds me of things that once were a big part of my life: the shed I explored as a child, the stove that was our hearth, and the tools Dad used to tend his gardens. These are all things of the past. I paint and I look back.

Yesterday, I was reflecting and feeling sad about the passing of life and time. Then I saw this quote: “You have to let go of what’s behind you so you can live the life you have ahead.” I have a bit of work to do in this department, but I’m not willing to completely let go of the “what’s behind” stuff. Some of “what’s behind” is full of warm memories and grounding stuff that I want to take with me to my journey’s end. As I celebrate my 53rd birthday, I embrace the life I have ahead as well as “what’s behind,” and I feel completely and totally blessed. You will continue to see me obsessively paint the past, but don’t think that I am stuck there. I choose to be there, and I like it. Life is meant to be lived and remembered. Today, I choose to do both on my journey. Join me.

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