The work on my canvas was once more classical and “acceptable” in style, but it bothered me. People liked my "old way" of painting. I now throw every impulse I have on top of my work and completely recreate what I see. I use new materials with intensity: cold wax, handmade collage papers, torn pieces from old documents and memorabilia, and textured mediums. I don’t have a focal point: naughty. I used black and texture liberally: intrusive. There are so many things I was trained to do that I have thrown out. No one conventional would even consider hanging my work on their wall. I am often asked why I don't make it "look real" and keep it as others see it. Why don't I? Because I will vomit if I stick with what’s expected for even a second longer. I just can’t do it anymore. Impulse is telling me that it’s time to investigate, explore, and break the rules. I let loose when I make my paintings. I get lost in time as I create: somewhere far from the expectations of others. I find hope in the act of doing it my way. I am spiritually freed when I paint from what's within. The time has come for me to own my process. This journey on my canvas will likely lead to little approval, but at least I am satisfied.
I will do what I want on this blank surface. The time has come for me to own my process. This journey on my canvas will likely lead to little approval, but at least I am satisfied.
The work on my canvas was once more classical and “acceptable” in style, but it bothered me. People liked my “old way” of painting. I now throw every impulse I have on top of my work and completely recreate what I see. I use new materials with intensity: cold wax, handmade collage papers, torn pieces from old documents and memorabilia, and textured mediums. I don’t have a focal point: naughty. I used black and texture liberally: intrusive. There are so many things I was trained to do that I have thrown out. No one conventional would even consider hanging my work on their wall. I am often asked why I don’t make it “look real” and keep it as others see it. Why don’t I? Because I will vomit if I stick with what’s expected for even a second longer. I just can’t do it anymore. Impulse is telling me that it’s time to investigate, explore, and break the rules. I let loose when I make my paintings. I get lost in time as I create: somewhere far from the expectations of others. I find hope in the act of doing it my way. I am spiritually freed when I paint from what’s within. The time has come for me to own my process. This journey on my canvas will likely lead to little approval, but at least I am satisfied.
Journey on Canvas Blog: A Place to Share Hope on Your Journey
Journey on Canvas is a spiritual autobiography and spiritual journaling site. The Journey on Canvas Blog will give you ideas for your spiritual journal and give you opportunities to share your spiritual story. This blog is also a place to find hope on your journey. Read, blog with me, and enjoy!
Tears for Dancing, Age 42
The older I get the less I think about what I can get out of this life. Bad things happen here on Earth and no one is immune. I see my parents suffering, I watch terrible things happen to my friends and I see catastrophic events that create hell on Earth. Revelation 21:4 promises that someday God will wipe every tear from our eyes and the old order of things will pass away. I’m beginning to think that this promise isn’t so far away: it’s just waiting for us at the next stop. Maybe when we die we trade our tears for dancing and enter Heaven. Until then, I'm going to paint, I'm going to write, and I'm going to share when I find hope in this life. That's why I'm here at Journey on Canvas.
